long post but i would love for people to read it

i lost my first pregnancy at 14, it obviously wasn’t planned but it still hurt so much. the guy also announced he cheated on me when i knew i was pregnant and so i never told him. my 2nd pregnancy was when i was 17 with my boyfriend and we didn’t plan that either but after we saw that positive we were so ready only to lose it at almost 2 months pregnant.. i don’t talk much about this but it’s so hard now cause every month i have this little hope in me that even though i’m not the most prepared i just want a baby. but then i get anxious that if i am ill just lose it again. my 2nd baby was gonna be named Braelynn Nicole or Brendan Christopher. i have missed my period this month and my fingers are crossed but i needed to share this with someone so 😬😕 i got a tattoo not to long ago for both miscarriages. it’s two little birds because i hope my babies are safe and free to fly in heaven but also i believe they still fly back to me to watch over me. here’s the tattoo 😊