Really need to vent

So last Tuesday I was 37 weeks. She checked my cervix and I was a hard 1cm meaning no wiggle room, a -2 station and 60%effaced. Well since then I've been trying to walk every day do squats as my body and 2 year old allow and trying to have sex as much as possible. Well today I went in for my 38 week appointment having high hopes of having progressed, well found out I'm a wiggly 1cm not yet 2 but close, still a -2 station and 70% effaced. I feel so upset with my body that I could honestly cry. On Monday if I haven't gone into labor shes stripping my membranes and I dont really want that I want to do it myself but at this point I dont think shes ever going to come. If any of you ladies have any advice or words of encouragement its greatly appreciated.