For the past 8 months, my boyfriend & I have been trying to conceive..

Every month I start to get early symptoms, dull back ache, sore breasts, off of certain foods, fatigue, nausea, not liking certain smells.

We both get our hopes up & then bang!!!, AF pays a visit.😢😭💔

Today I came on 5 days early.

I am so devastated again & don't feel like I can keep putting us through it as we're both really heartbroken.

I already have two children which aren't my current boyfriends & am blessed but the past two relationships I have had which include my children's Dad were abusive & they both made it pretty clear how no more children were wanted..

Now I am with a guy who wants to start a family & I feel like I'm letting him down.

We've both been through so much in past relationships & now we have something good, I feel like we're never going to be blessed with a child of our own.

I'm trying so hard to hold my tears in but my heart is breaking..😭😭😭