I share custody with my daughter’s father 50/50. He gets her Sunday Monday Tuesday, we alternate Saturdays, and she sleeps over his house Friday night (I’ll drop her off at 6:30 pm since she goes to bed at 7) if I work early Saturday morning so I don’t have to wake her super early.

This means sometimes I go 4 full days without seeing her. She’s only two.

I thought splitting custody was the best and selfless decision. We’ve already legally agreed to it. I do think it’s best for her to have equal amounts of time with each of us.

She loves her dad to death and he loves her just as much, they have a wonderful relationship and I would never ever want to keep them from each other which is why I was so willing to do 50/50 custody. However it’s killing me.

I try to stay busy when I don’t have her, working full shifts and I’m in my senior year of college. Most of the time I do okay knowing she’s having fun with her dad and his family and I’m working hard to give her a better life.

But it just makes me feel like a part-time mom in a way. Someone once told me if I was a good mother I’d have full custody... that really got to me although it’s completely illogical since I’m being a good mother by letting her have a relationship with her father. I think it would’ve been selfish to try and get more custody than him when he is just as deserving to see her as much as I see her. Plus she seems perfectly happy with the schedule. She is never sad to leave me or him, so that makes me feel as though it’s a good schedule. People always assume since I’m the mom that I have her more but I feel like that’s kind of sexist. Her father is just as capable of taking care of her and just as important in her life as I am.

I just start to get down and feel as though I hardly see her. It breaks my heart knowing there will never again be a time where I see my daughter every single day.It fucking sucks! Anyone else share custody 50/50? How do you deal with it?

I’m not asking if this is the right decision. I know it is. She is very happy and has no issues making the change between us. I’m asking how do I MYSELF deal with it