This shit sucks.

Too sad to completely vent. 8 or 9dpo and got a BFN. I don’t know how much longer I can put myself through this. I have 0 symptoms, this time I actually wanted false symptoms so I can at least FEEELL something. Feel like I’m pregnant ig🤷🏽‍♀️. Not like it’s going to happen. I’m not that religious but I wonder why God would punish me like this, at least that’s what it feels like.