I miss my mom

On December 5,2016 my mom killed herself. I was 11 and my brother 13. I had found her dead when i came home from school. I screamed and ran to go get my brother. He called the police and our dad. I cried in my neighbors house until my dad came and i cried more. We went to go tell my brother in college and i cried the whole way there and back. I couldn’t believe it. I still can’t. She had been suffering from anxiety and depression for 4 years before. She was my best friend. The sweetest most caring person i ever met. I miss her so much. I cry almost everyday. I don’t know what to do. I am 13 now with no mom. My dad had a midlife crisis after and married a woman with 6 kids. I have 4 brothers of my own. All except 1 are moved out. I honestly don’t like anyone who now lives with me. I still wear one of her bracelets and her wedding band on a necklace everyday. I don’t know what to do and i’m starting to forget what her voice sounded like. I miss her so much. I love her still and always will.