Traumatic Miscarriage

Here is my story...

We found out on Wednesday that I was having a miscarriage after I started to bleed. I was 9 weeks and 3 days along. We went in for an ultrasound and the baby no longer had a heartbeat. I was scheduled to go in Friday for a D&C.

Thursday night things went from bad to worse. I started having sever contractions. No lie it was worse than when I was in labor for my first pregnancy. Shortly after that I took a shower and I started bleeding significantly. So much where I couldn’t even get out of the shower. Once I stepped out of the shower there was a huge puddle of blood on the ground. I tried to put 2 thick pads on and I soaked through them in 1 min. Not to be graphic but it was literally like turning on a faucet. That’s how much blood I was losing. It was unmanageable. I was feeling light headed so we made a call to the on call doctor and she said I needed to go to the ER immediately. We called 911 and the ambulance took me in. The EMT said it was the most blood he’s ever seen for a miscarriage. I was continuing to bleed and they checked my hemoglobin numbers and I dropped 3 levels which is a huge amount of blood loss. If I were to wait I would have continued to lose so much blood it would have been life threatening/needing a blood transfusion. They had to rush me in for emergency surgery. Even in surgery I was losing way too much blood they had to give me some type of medicine to help stop/clot the blood. After surgery everything settled down and I was feeling much better and not bleeding near as much. I am now home and recovering.

I think currently I am in a state of shock and numb. Not only did I lose my baby, I had the most traumatic miscarriage having to be rushed in by ambulance into emergency surgery.

I am also struggling because my baby was “fine” at my first 7 week appointment and had a strong heartbeat. I have so many questions I’ll never get answers to. What happened? Did I do something wrong? What could I have done differently?

I don’t really know where to go from here. I just feel lost.