Crying in public.

So my boyfriend & I went to dinner last night & there was like a family birthday dinner thing going on near us, and one of the guys proposed to his girlfriend, she cried, said yes and stuff, and I was like “awh” and my boyfriend was like what, and I explained a guy just proposed. He was like “don’t do it, don’t do it” & “it’s a trap

Obviously not loud enough for anyone but me to hear, but as he was saying it I was like way to make me feel good.. and right as he looked at me, I busted into tears, in public, and he was like babe, it was a joke.. and I didn’t say anything more bc crying in public is so ugly of me..

I feel so heartbroken... like it’s just never gonna happen.. we’ve been together almost 3/4 years and we have a 1yr old baby together. We’ve had the conversation before like I’ve asked if he ever wants to or not, and he says yes eventually, just not right now.. but I feel like he doesn’t mean it . I know you don’t have to be married, and he can love me just the same. Just idk. A rant I guess🤷🏼‍♀️