Really trying not to symptom spot..

This tww is kicking my butt. I can't wait until Thursday or Friday. This was our first month trying after the loss of our baby. I was 28 weeks along. This is the first month we've been actively trying for our rainbow.

We were pretty goof this month about taking our vitamins, and timing out our sex. I'm trying not to symptom spot because every little pain or backache I keep thinking if that's how I felt last year when i got pregnant. I hope we did everything right and we get our little rainbow baby.

8dpo last time was when I tested and I got a bfp! I'm 8dpo, but I'm gonna wait at least one more daybtoo test with gum. I'm so scared to not get a positive. We tried so hard and we've basically lost a year... It's sad.. We should've had our baby now. I hope and pray we get our rainbow this month.

I'm feeling really strong cramps on both my left and right sides and some back pain. I usually don't feel cramps until the day or two before I'm supposed to get my period and these are very targeted. I can pinpoint exact location of pain. I hope it's a good sign.

Wish me luck.