I dont know how to cope

Yesterday i found or that the baby I thought would be joining my family could possibly be a blighted ovum. I go back in 2 weeks to make sure but Ever since I've been crying uncontrollably. Although I'm not deeply religious, this was the baby i prayed for and now I'll never get a chance to even see him/her. I really feel like hiding under a rock and just crying for the rest of my life.

How could i be grieving for someone Ive never even gotten a chance to see? I dont plan on ttc anytime soon because I dont think I could handle another loss like this.