Torn in finding out the gender

Alexandra • Baby boy 7/17/18 baby #2 due June 2019

I loved the surprise of our first and not finding out, but he was a boy and that’s what I was really hoping for...

With this one I’m hoping for another boy... I want to wait again and make it a surprise but I’m so worried if it’s a girl I’m gonna have that gender disappointment I hear about and not enjoy the moment...even tho I know I will get over it and love this baby the second it comes out as I do already.

I’m torn 😣

Edit: I am excited for a baby boy or girl, more ready for a girl this time since I already have my boy...just wondering if gender disappointment has hit anyone else?