I have the worst post partum anxiety and depression. I keep the depression to myself but this PPA is just too much to handle... I haven’t talked to a dr about it yet I know I need to but I’m embarrassed and scared to.

My daughter is 8 months now and I haven’t worked since a month before she was born. I’m having to go back to work for financial reasons and we can’t afford daycare right now and don’t have family here to help watch her. This means that I’m going to have to do overnight shifts and then watch my daughter the entire day until 4 pm because of my husbands work schedule. It’s the only thing that will work for us only having 1 car. My husband doesn’t realize how stressful and unreasonable this is for me. I won’t be getting any sleep at all. I have very bad sciatic pain and pelvic pains and will be on my feet the entire shift which truthfully I don’t think I’ll be able to handle.. We just moved to Michigan and I’ve never experienced a winter and I am beyond nervous about driving in these conditions at night! I have terrible eyesight as it is..

I’m at my witts end. I am lost. I’ve lost my own identity I don’t recognize myself and now i am so stressed about this job stuff and I’m very worried about how it will effect not just me but my relationship with my husband and my capabilities of being a good mom....