Im so conflicted 😩😩!!!

Guys I need your thoughts on something... this is super long bear with me

So I’ve been with my bf Andrew for 6 years now and I love him to death... I always thought we would be together and get married and have babies and I’ve been ready for a long time but he wasn’t. Now he is and I don’t think I am. We have our issues but we always get threw them... but lately I can’t help but think what if there’s someone else that would be better for me or make me happier... i feel like we aren’t right for each other and I feel like I’ve known for a while but we have been together for a long time and I think we’re comfortable with each other and we’ve only been with each other. He always tells me that I’m everything to him and he wants to be with me, and will do anything to be with me; he would have nothing with out me. He even went to buy a ring at Christmas time but couldn’t because of his credit.

So anyways he has this friend that he used to work with and lately they have been hanging out n he would come stay at our house and we would go hunting or to a hockey game.

You know how when you meet someone new it takes a little bit to feel comfortable with someone? Well not with him. He’s such a nice person and just a gentleman in the first few hours that we went hunting together he treated me nicer than anyone has... he opened my car door called me sweet heart. So it just made me realize that maybe there’s more out there ya know.

Fast forward a few days later I had off work and listening to music on the play station and noticed he was online so we started talking and we have soo much in common we both want to travel, go skydiving, see the northern lights, we like the same kinds of movies and books and we talked for hours about anything and everything. Well Andrew and I were fighting and so I was venting to him about everything... I mentioned how I felt and he said that he noticed a connection between us... and he has the most beautiful eyes 👀 i have ever seen

When Andrew found out he got super mad saying didn’t want me to talk to him because he didn’t trust him and that he’s the type of person that only thinks about sex blah blah..I was like what does that have to do with me? And if you really didn’t trust someone why would you bring them to our house??!

Long story (still long) short I respect his opinion so I haven’t talked to him since other than to say hi when they are playing games.. and I understand his point I wouldn’t want him talking to some chick either I guess.

Butttt I can’t stop thinking about him, he hasn’t left my mind since we met for the first time and I can’t help but think we met for a reason... we all went to cabalas last weekend and like I can’t explain it but i can’t even look at this guy without my heart going a million miles an hour. He had a chance to talk and he asked how things going between Andrew and I and stuff and said he figured if anything would happen i would call him 😂 then he said if I wanted it to come get it with one of those half smile/smirks...🙃😮

So I really appreciate it if you stuck around this long and now I don’t even know what to think I’ve been so conflicted... I just tried to forget about him and I thought I was over it until we went to cabbalas and now I’m all worked up again. Like I said I love Andrew soooo much and I obviously want to be with him; but I just don’t want to wake up in ten years not happy and wondering what else is out there and i feel like if I’m questioning it now... but I also don’t want to loose him he’s my best friend and we’ve been through so much together....