First time posting

So. This is my first time posting. I normally don't post anything on here, too shy to post anything. But today just feels like one of those days I want to share. So, me and my boyfriend are TTC. And lately its been hard.

Twice I've gotten a negative test result. This time I followed what the app calander says (its normally always correct. Sometimes off by days or 1 day) and last month my period was on time. We literally BD my entire fertile week up til the 26th which was 2 days before ovulation. Had surgery on the day of my surgery, so pretty much im afraid to wait the two weeks and afraid to test too early. What the heck do I do? I really want a baby, we both do. Im just afraid it'll be negavtive. Any advice on how to keep my spirits up?