I just left an abusive relationship.

Right now I’m sitting here feeling like maybe I should of just done what he told me too... Never asked for anything... and none of it would of happened. It wasn’t always bad. Especially if I had sex with him when he wanted.. then he was nice.. maybe if I just always had sex even when I didn’t want to he would of never been mean.. or never would of woken up to him having sex with me in my sleep. Maybe never would of cheated either.

Maybe if I would of stayed out of his business and never ask questions..

I don’t know.

I’m homesick. Even tho I hated being there a lot of the time.. it wasn’t always bad when he was nice.