No period for 4 months

Yalenni • 🍒🍒

October 2018 thought I was pregnant, 2 positives 6 negatives, doctor said it was a phantom pregnancy despite the positives, I truly thought with all my heart that I was pregnant. The lien is so powerful that it made me feel every symptom in the book. After getting repeatedly told that I wasn’t I let it go and all my symptoms went away. I still had no period so me and my husband have been having unprotected sex coz you can’t get pregnant if there’s no period. Early January 2019 still no period, nausea hits me hard, I immediately pushed out the thought of being pregnant coz i didn’t want to experience that again. Ignored. Few weeks later, still nausea and added headaches. Finally caved and took a test, negative, 2 more days tested again, looked like a faint positive, showed my husband and he didn’t see it so I pushed it out of my head again. Now February and STILL no period until the 2nd, I get very slight cramps and pink spotting when I wipe. Day after, light brown discharge, today the 5th, dark discharge. Everything I’m reading online says it happens before or after a period but idk how coz there’s no actual blood and then it also says early pregnancy sign. I haven’t tested again since the last time and I have an appointment on the 12 of this month. But the brown discharge hasn’t stopped so maybe this is me finally getting my period. But that wouldn’t explain why I’ve had these symptoms for a whole as month now. I’m so confused