This broke my heart, I’m so done!!

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According to the app I’m 15 dpo and AF was due yesterday. Which I’m not sure if it’s correct because periods have always been irregular, I don’t have PCOS. I’ve tested since about 10 dpo and today still BPN on every test you can think of. I’m so fucking done. Everyday I’m just like maybe still too early. But 15 dpo?! Ugh I’m so done! These tests today just made me break down! I want this! I have 2 children and they were a “surprise” and now that my husband and I are actually TTC, nothing...I think I’m jus going to lay low and if it happens it happens. Actively TTC is so draining and I’m only 2 cycles down and already a hot mess, so I’m so done! Sorry had to let it out