Endo is killing me :(

I’m 23, not sure if any of you have heard me whine before but here I am again.

So I was diagnosed w endo when I was 17, officially. Even tho I was so very sure I had it as young as 14. Periods in high school were unbearable, I dropped out of college because I was literally skipping a week of lectures a month due to my period. I’m so thankful that now working at Starbucks, they pay for my tuition so I am back in school through Arizona State, I’ll be graduating next May!

I just can’t help but feel so helpless and tired of myself tho when it comes to my period. And I’m SO tired of people not understanding. Like do you know what I would do to be able to get out of bed on day 1-3 of my period? I literally have a trash can beside me and change my tampon and pad while my lower half is dangling off the bed because I literally become paralyzed with pain. Right now the best form of relief is my moms tens unit, and lidocaine patches over my ovaries. I’m allergic to Tylenol, it gives me stomach ulcers. Ibuprofen doesn’t even touch the pain, and I’ve been prescribed Vicodin and muscle relaxers but I throw up what I take either because of how nauseous I am on my periods from the pain that I’m not eating with the pills. So THEN they gave me zofran to control the nausea and vomiting, it does, but it gives me migraines and constipation like no other. And we all know how period poops are so imagine that x1648494736.

I’m just defeated, I’m depressed, I have created my own anxieties now because I feel like I’ll never be successful at a job because I will always have to be home the first couple days of my period. I’m just done, exhausted.

Thanks for coming to my Ted talk