Second D&C

I posted in here a bit ago about having very heavy bleeding and clots almost 8 weeks after my d&c 12/15. Well after a two week follow up, 3 Er visits and a walk in appointment this morning I was once again sat down and told I needed another d&c. I had a large amount of remaining tissue and pockets of blood. I had to be treated for infection and given a blood transfusion. I just got back home after a 12 hour day and all I see on the ground are blood stains from this morning when I started gushing blood and I’m just not able to do anything but cry. I just feel like my heart is broken again. This has been the longest miscarriage process I’ve ever endured and I’m just so ready to feel “normal” again. 😔😔😔😔 thank you for listening to me vent 😔