I’m in my twenties now, but from time to time I think about this. I have never told anyone, but I don’t think if it’s considered sexual abuse or if I was molested. Anyway, when I was 4-5, my older cousin who was 8-9 told me his older brothers had been watching weird movies and he wanted to test something out. He had told me he’d asked my other girl cousin who was two years older if she could help him act it out and she said no. Being little and dumb and not knowing what he meant and thinking he wanted to play or something I said yes. we went to the back of the house, there he told me to turn around. I did and he pulled down his pants and underwear, then mine and he stuck his penis in between my buttcheeks and rubbed it for a little bit. After a few minutes he pulled up his pants and Said that was it. And ran off. I pulled up my pants and didn’t think anything of it although I still remember it clearly. It only happened once, but I’ve never known what I should consider that. He was a little kid as well, but when I grew older and realized what happened it bothered me for the longest time, and I felt dirty. I also find it incredible that even though I forget everything, I still remember that so clearly.