Love being made to feel bad about not BF

I TRIED.

Just like with my first, I failed.

I have PPD and Anxiety. And I get panic attacks during my letdown (theres a name for it, look it up) and I just CANT anymore. My supply sucks and he gets so stressed trying to latch and pumping is a nightmare and my boobs hurt and I'm so unhappy doing it. I feel like a failure and WIC and all my friends make me feel worse. Saying theres chemicals in formula and that breast is best, yeah I know. But I can only take so much and if its causing me and my 3 week old this much stress, then FED IS BEST.

I hate everyone :(