My ex was a skilled covert narcissist who emotionally manipulated and abused me for 2 years. He ghosted me one day with no rhyme or reason... because he started seeing someone else. A year later he shows up on my doorstep because she left him for her ex. The empath I am, I was his shoulder to cry on, but more so I knew how reckless he could be in vulnerable situations like that. I feared for his life. He promised me everyday that he would give me the love I deserved all along.. he moved in... we got a puppy.. things were great... until one day they weren’t. He was cold. Distant. Claiming he still needed to heal from his broken heart. I kicked him out the week before xmas. Low and behold it’s because he and her were commingling again. I purchased many self-help books on breakups and abandonment and narcissism. I watched hours of YouTube videos trying to understand how someone could be so shallow and cruel. I highly suggest books and videos. There are support groups and pages to help you cope. Take it one day at a time. Utilize adult coloring books. Write. Read. Go for a run. Find the smallest of hobbies and do it every day. I have faith in you.

How are you feeling now?

I’m still struggling through something like this, I wish I had your strength