Depression and anxiety😴😴

I’ve recently been having depression and it really sucks having to wake up everyday feeling like no one cares and that everyone would be happier with you gone. It sucks watching the person you love lose feelings and suddenly stop texting you as much. It sucks feeling hopeless and tired everyday. It sucks having to sleep and waking up wishing you were just gone. Depression sucks. Idk how tf to cope with it. I’ve had it in the past and something triggered it and it came back. Might be the birth control I’m on. My boyfriend lost feelings for me he’d usually text me back fast but now he takes 5-10 min to reply back to one text. It fucking sucks thinking that your boyfriend or girlfriend doesn’t love you and doesn’t care. I want all this to just be over. I want my old life back. I hate depression. It’s hard to work it’s hard to eat. It’s hard to do anything really.