So scared, taking a different approach

Ladies I could use some prayers, positive thoughts, good energy, all of it. Today we are mailing off a shipment to our surrogate for at home insemination. I'm a bundle of nerves and feelings and I'm so so scared.

Hubby and I have been trying for years, had a miscarriage in 2017 and nothing since. This is a friend of ours who offered to do this amazing this for us. I'm so grateful and so torn at the same time. There's just so many emotions at once!