I am quitting breastfeeding... and I feel like a failure

Ladies I could really use some words of encouragement as I cry myself to sleep tonight

I finally made the decision to quit breastfeeding. And this decision is killing me. My plan was to EBF my little one until she was one. But from day one there was a problem. And that problem wasnt my daughter. Oh no, she latched like a champ! I was so proud of her! The problem was me. I wasnt producing enough milk. I went through sleepless nights watching my baby scream after breastfeeding because she was so hungry. Crying over and over again. Especially after feedings. It tore me apart. It got to the point that when I took my shirt off in preparation of breastfeeding, her cry would turn into a blood curdling scream as if I hurt her. She was hungry. And I wasnt cutting it.

So then I started to supplement with formula but didnt give up on breastfeeding. (Also recommending by my doctor as she failed 2 weigh-ins). I tried everything. Fenugreek, brewers yeast, supplements, milk flow, lactation tea, apricots, papaya, a new pump, new flanges, hand expression, haaka, lactation cookies, oatmeal, etc. You name it, I've tried it but nothing did the trick.

pumping was a slap in the face. I would dedicate 2-3 hours of my time at work to pumping to only get a grand total of 1 ounce a day. I would sit there and cry the entire time I pumped out of pure embarrassment and disappointment.

I did this for 4 months. I have tried, and kept trying, and kept trying. But now my LO wont breastfeed anymore. She screams at the sight of my breast. And pumping is useless when I get less than an ounce a day.

This is such a tough decision but all the sign point to the fact that it is no longer working. I wasnt meant to breastfeed.