Please excuse the whine fest... I just need to know that I’m not alone out there.

Before pregnancy I lost 20-25lbs and it was hard. It took me over a year. I grew up playing sports and always had an athletic build and didn’t have to try. After getting married (to a wonderful cook who loves comfort food) I gained that weight. I didn’t want babies for a long time because I was vain and selfish and didn’t want to mess up my body that I worked so hard for.

Fast forward to my 7th month of pregnancy. I’ve gained 35lbs. I have back rolls and my already large boobs are massive. My nipples are ginormous and I have stretch marks all over my love handles which also stick out of everything I wear. My stick legs are covered in cellulite. I look like a toad 🤦🏼‍♀️ and my sweet husband looks at me like I’m the most beautiful creature alive. He loves the bump and tells my how cute I am all the time.

I’ve Been walking on incline with my heart rate around 155 for 30 minutes at least 4 times a week, I do lots of stretches and squats. But I just keep getting more gross. I don’t eat that bad? I’ve been eating decently since being pregnant. And I know it’s only going to get worse. My giant boobs will sag, my vagina will be annihilated, and my belly will looked like a popped balloon.

I’m just so used to being in shape and I’ve just really been struggling with all this body change. I’m not trying to sound vain, I’m just a normal female that doesn’t want to gain weight. I know, I know, I’m growing a healthy baby and that’s a miracle and I should see this body as a precious gift... but I just don’t. All I see is discouragement and hopelessly feeling like I’m never going to get my body back.

Does anyone else feel this way? Does anyone else feel depressed or disgusted with their body? I feel like I’m the only one, everyone else seems to love their bumps and stretch marks. Maybe it’s because I’m a FTM and I haven’t seen the benefits of doing this to my body yet?

**Update**

Thank you so much ladies! I feel so much better just having read your posts. Just knowing I’m not alone and that it’s a common struggle helps. You’ve also given me hopes of getting back into shape! Thank you so much for taking the time to comment. I’m so grateful!