Read this or not idc

So I just wanna cry. I really don’t know. I’m currently listening to a song called promise by Ben Howard. It’s a sad song. I guess nows a time to speak how I’m feelin. I’m tired of people thinking they can just walk all over me. In math, everyone understands the concept but me. They say it’s easy and all of that. I asked the teacher for help but he’s no help 😪. I feel like it’s just me in this world. Like I’m the one trying to hold up all of my relationships with everyone. I’m the one that has to talk first. Text first. Why can’t someone text me? I wasn’t talking at the beginning of class and Elizabeth goes ,”she’s mad.” Like that just made me mad her just assuming shit of because I’m not talkin. LJ and Mia dropped a piece of paper and they said “can you get that?”and I said no and they said “..she’s mad for no reason.” Actually there is a reason. If you cared, you would ask if I’m okay and what’s the matter. But nope. If I died, would that make a difference? Omg I’m tearing up just thinking about it. New song. This one is called wait for me. Ugh so pretty. Can I just skip forward to the part of my life where I’m happily married with kids and a beautiful house with my dream career??? High school is an endless cycle of bullsbit and bullshit people. Great now that I’ve teared up my nose is running. I’m tired of having to hide my phone. I just wanna take it out. I’m also tired of being dropped off and picked up from work. I wanna drive myself. I am 17 you know..