My boyfriend and I had been dating for a year but friends since 2005. We always had an attraction to one another but never seem like the right time to date being that we were in different cities, so when his mom got down sick he moved to the next town over from me and asked me then if maybe he and I could date, I told him we can see where things go and we did. Three months later he moved into my home but the relationship began with problems as he would not come home for 2-3 days at a time and when he did return he would always apologize and say that he would do better. I got pregnant also 3 months into the relationship and that still didn't stop him from partying. I am in my late 30's and he is in his mid 30's. I went to work, raised my previous children that are not his and pay all of the bills. He would be wasteful with his money and always claim to not have enough to help out although he worked a full time job like myself and when he did help out maybe 3 times within the relationship he would complain, so he took it upon himself to provide only household neccisities like tissue, paper towel and plates and I allowed him to do so. To make a longer story short. My two older children moved off to college and that only left myself, my EX and my 3 year old daughter and the child I was now carrying for my EX so we decided to move out of the home I had been renting for the past 7 years and downsize to an apartment. This man claimed he loved me and wanted to raise our son together in a two parent home and how we were gonna get married within the next few months to come. Well we got the apartment in my EX name and things just felt off with us. I could sense that someone else had entered the picture because my EX started being cold and mean toward me. It had been two weeks now since we moved and I still didn't have a key to the apartment, I was staying with my mom until our new furniture arrive so I went to the apartment on Friday Nov 16th and my Ex tried to hand me the key to go make a copy and as he was turning around I saw that his neck was full of hickeys and at that very moment my heart sank. I told him that I couldn't believe that he would cheat on me after all I had endured from my past. I had just given birth to our son, this is his first biological child and I was still in pain from the cesearean. He told me that he had been seeing someone for the past two months and that he no longer wanted a relationship with me so I got my belongings and my children belongings and moved in with my mom. From that day to this one, he has seen his son Twice each month and he does nothing to help financially. He told me to get over the fact that he don't want me and to go find someone else. Two weeks later I go to the apartment to beg him back and he had another female at the apartment that was suppose to be for us, he was making her lunch and he told me that he would have me banned if I ever show up again. He has left me in pain, I can't get over how he walked away from me and never looked back or had any remorse how I was left to suffer. How could he so easily let me go when I was there for him through his darkest times of his mom passing. He ignores my calls/text and will only reply if he chooses to. How can he have this baby and not love him enough to call and check up on him. Weeks go by and we hear nothing from him, like I stated before we see him twice a month when he come pick up our son for about 2-3 hours. What can I do ease the pain and please tell me what made it so easy for him to walk away from our relationship when he claim I was all he wanted. Now he says he is at his happiest because he is free and don't have to answer to anyone but I strongly feel he has another woman, he didn't ask me and our kids to leave just to be alone