ππ So discouraged ππ
I am 27, 5β3 && 280 lbs π₯°
In 2012 I lost my 1st (my son) at 27 weeks due to a true knot in his umbilical cord. He woulda been 7 this year π
In 2014 I had my daughter who will b 5 this May with no complications π
September of 2018 I had my IUD taken out so the fiancΓ© && I could have one more βΌοΈ
1/14/19 I found out I was pregnant && the next day I found out I was having a chemical pregnancy. I JUST got my 1st period after my chemical on 2/5 && it just ended today π°
My HCG levels are as follows:
1/15 - 321
1/17 - 129
1/19 - 82
1/30 - 64
2/7 - 34
Waiting for my HCG levels to drop to negative just makes me feel stuck in this grieving process π I couldnβt have been more than 3 weeks so it doesnβt hurt as bad as my 1st, but it feels worse because itβs like a repeat of him π«
I just feel so stuck. I have no motivation to do anything. It just hurts so bad && I feel so alone. I want to start trying again. I just want to move past this. I feel like this is just dragging on && itβs driving me crazy. Loosing 2/3 of my kids has really taken a toll on me emotionally.
Iβm hoping a weight loss journey will take my mind off of this && help me feel better emotionally π
I just want my rainbow baby π
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Update 2/17/19: my HCG as of 2/12/19 was 16. Weβll see what tomorrow holds for me π€·π»ββοΈ
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