I’m pretty confident in myself and my abilities, but my family is not. My parents are both negative. I love my mom but she’s always telling me “idk how you’re gonna be able to do that...” when I feel like she should be encouraging me. I think it has to do with the way she thinks about herself. She lacks confidence in herself, so she automatically thinks that I’m not able to do anything either. I guess it doesn’t help that she married someone (my dad) who makes her feel bad for asking for help and tells her she’s stupid.

My grandparents are just as bad. They assume I won’t be able to do things and then just do everything for me so I can’t learn from my own mistakes.

I just wish everyone in my family could treat me like they treat my cousin, who’s only 9 months older. When she says she’s going to do something, no one says “hmm, I don’t think she’ll be able to do that...” I’m more independent than she is. She can’t do anything without her friends. She’s 24 years old and she’s still scared to be alone in her house for an hour if her roommates aren’t there....

My mom thinks it’s “sad” that I’m going to be living alone, but I chose this. I fucking hate being around people lmao. I had the option to live with my friend but I politely told her I wanted to live by myself.

I KNOW PARTS OF IT ARENT GOING TO BE EASY. I KNOW I MIGHT GET LONELY SOMETIMES. Damn! I’m not an idiot! Like everyone thinks I am!

Just some things that are bothering me right now. It feels good to get it all off my chest