My favorite holiday since I was little was Valentine's day. I love the idea of celebrating just love. No iconic things like Santa and the Easter Bunny. Valentines day gets to the point. Well this Valentine's day I already knew was going to be not the best. I have a drs. Appointment today and a birthing class so I'm not going to be able to drive up to my fiance. We are a good distance away. This will be our first Valentines day apart. I'm also nervous about my drs appointment. I hate speculums witch is what I got to do today and I have bad anxiety. I needed my fiance today. I needed him to keep me calm. I even told him last night I was going to need him today. Guess what. He stayed up all night because one of his female friends was upset. So now hes asleep and I'm all alone and upset. Why couldn't that girl go to her boyfriend? Why did he have to be there for her and let me be left alone? Does he just not care what i go through😞 (This is just a rant I'm upset and just need to get it out.)