Hoping I’m not alone

Ok Mamas. I want to be honest. I’m struggling still if not more with depression and anxiety. I feel like the third month hit me back to the first week. This is my third baby and I’m older and know what to look for. I started Zoloft the day after I had Ronin and just started my anti anxiety as well a monthish ago. I had some really bad nights while I was alone and realized that I may need more help. So today I made the big leap and scheduled my first therapy session. It’s in a program that is all pregnant and postpartum ladies. It’s super welcome to bring baby along. I’m excited and nervous and anxious but I know it will be good. I did a intense outpatient program while in the Navy and it helped a lot but once I was done with it that was it. No more therapy and I think that if I continued it would have helped. So I feel raw and lonely and defeated but step one is done. I go next Friday and I know it’s what I need and will help. I have to get past the stigma that the military gives you of needing help for mental health. Please tell me I’m not alone. Is anyone else going through this as well?