f*cked up relationship

i love my bf but our relationship is so f*cked and i hate that!!!!!!!! what i say here is gunna make him sound like a horrible person but trust me you’d understand if you saw the way he raised, it’s not his fault!!!!!!!!!! he was expelled from school and he smokes a lot and does a lot of hard drugs, i do smoke but i don’t do other drugs and he would never pressure me so dw about that but like i’ll never be able to let my parents meet him, well never be able to go so a school dance together, like i won’t be able to have just a normal high school relationship which i want so bad but i love him so much