Just needed to vent a lil.

I got pregnant after I lost my job. Yeah I know stupid my fault big time. We were trying for over 2 years to have a baby. I’ve gone through 3 miscarriages before this little miracle. May can’t come any sooner.

I’m depressed because I have to depend on people for everything (totally not use to that), no money, home all day every day, I have a 5 year old and her father has been telling her bad things about me so I’m even more stressed out and to top things off the people who were planning my shower told me yesterday that they can’t afford it.

Didn’t show any time of sympathy whatsoever! It was like they were super happy to know that I decided to just cancel it.

I was looking forward to the shower to be around friends and family, be able to dress up, put on make up & just have a fun day. Now that’s gone down the drain.

Sigh...