Let me start off by saying, I am so happy everyone has healthy babies. I’m so jealous of you all at the same time. For the last 10 weeks, I’ve known my baby girl isn’t going to live very long.

I want the maternity pictures, the baby shower, the weekly updates. But it’s too hard. She is so active and I love her. It’s just not fair that she doesn’t get to grow up with her 2 brothers and sister.

After losing my dad in November and miscarrying in May, I really saw this baby as our rainbow. I could not wait to find out the gender. I’m just extra sad today.

I do wish you all happy and smooth births! You’re all so blessed and so beautiful!