Physical and mental exhaustion from my ED

I’ve struggled with an ED for over a year now. It’s been a super inconsistent journey that fluctuates between 1-3 really good days then 1-2 weeks of awful habits.

I can’t control cravings or bingeing and it leaves me feeling guilty and embarrassed. Due to this feeling of embarrassment I feel like I can’t talk to my friends or family about it and it just leaves me feeling physically and mentally exhausted.