Going alone

It’s completely my fault but I’ve been having a relationship with a co-worker for a year. We like each other, he’s nice to me and that’s more than most.

We are both in relationships with other people and have been for three years. This whole thing started because my boyfriend forgot my birthday last year and we spent the night together.

I found out yesterday that I’m pregnant. I know in my heart I can’t have this baby but it’s all I’ve ever wanted. I’m getting an abortion tomorrow and I have not told him and I can’t ever. It breaks my heart but I really feel like there is no other choice.

I’m on here because I can’t tell anyone about this which is completely my fault and now I feel completely alone.