Nearly 5 weeks no AF

On Jan the 18th I started miscarrying I was 9 weeks and 2 days and it's been 42 days since then and no sign of AF. I either want a bfp or af to hurry up and arrive. It's the second loss in a year and it's killing me. I know I'm lucky I have two wonderful boys and my first was a rainbow baby (got pregnant straight after a mc) then second and now two miscarriages but I want to give my partner a biological child and it's just not happening. How long does it take the stupid af to come back? I don't remember waiting this long last time. I'm just impatient because it feels like ages but it's not and I hate being in limbo.