Sex without an orgasm

So last night I had sex with my ex who iv never really gotten over (he was my first) and we’ve talked before in the past but it was just a sex thing back then and now that we’re both older (I have 2 kids which he’s cool with) it’s seem like we’ve rekindled things an last night I was so into everything that was goin on an then once we were bout to go at it he asked if I was on Bc an I said no so he had to go find a condom which come to find out was all the way out in his car.. so when we finally restarted again I was like let go an so we didn’t do any real foreplay an so I didn’t orgasm an he seemed bummed and embarrassed that I didn’t which to me wasn’t a big deal cuz iv has sex plenty of times an not came but besides all that all iv been able to think about since last night has been us, the sex, am wanting to go jump his bones again

Since iv started talking to him iv had sex brain and in my last relationship (which gave me my top kids) I never had this feel or thoughts

I’m going crazy 😫