My baby boy is now a NICU baby... And the only one of my three boys to ever have to go to NICU and I'm scared to be honest. He has a tear in his lung which is allowing air to get into his chest cavity and the first thing they tried didn't fix it so now he's going have a tube and it sounds like he will be here at the hospital until it heals. The bad thing is I almost didn't come in the day I ended up being kept and then we ended up having complications (his heart rate lowered mine kept spiking... My blood pressure kept dropping... Ended up to numb and they ended up using the vac to get him out) my doctor wasn't planning on scheduling me to be induced for another two weeks and the what ifs keep going through my head. Honestly idk how my hubby is fast asleep right now (we just had him early this morning) when all I want to do is make sure he's ok and hold him again. The nurses were shocked though cus I was able to pump a good oz or 2 for him but I think it helped that before he was put in the NICU I got to hold him a bit (I could tell something was off but not what and the figured it out when they took him to nursery to do more stuff) I'm hoping my supply will stay up and he heals soon cus I hate this already. My other two I would have been holding right now instead I'm waiting to see if the tube is working ok or what is going on.