I'm so scared && have no support system

I'm 20 year's old && was brought into the U.S illegally when i was just 2 yrs old. I was put into foster care && the system when i was 13 && aged out at 18. They were working on getting my citizenship, but the process stopped when i moved back in with my father. I'm 20 yrs old now && i still live at home, no job, no money, nothing to my name. I feel like a failure. Does anyone know what i could do to start the process again or how i could get a job. Is it possible for an illegal immigrant to get a job? I'm scared of getting deported. Any advcie can be useful. (idk what group would be the proper group to put this im forgive me) TIA!💓