Help. PPD PPA

I need some help you guys. Or support or something.

I gave birth to my babygirl in December. She’s two months and just perfect. Ever since I came home from the hospital I’ve been battling ppd and ppa.

They put me on zoloft and it worked a bit but each time I thought I was getting better a week or 2 later we would have to increase the dose because my anxiety and depression would come back. I’m at 150 of zoloft and I can tell my pcp is at a loss as what to do because once again I’m in a dark place. I’m so tired of it and I really hate myself for saying this but I feel like giving up. And just ya know.. like she would be better off without me.

My doctor prescribed me 150 of Wellbutrin along with the 150 of zoloft. I started it today and I’m hoping it helps. I just feel so lost and I can’t see a physiatrist till middle of March.