Freaking out

Back story on me, I’m 21 and my ex and I had 4 miscarriages. I have a gene mutation that causes them. I’ve been on supplements ever since. In October I met an amazing man. We moved kinda fast but we had a good relationship. Neither of us wanted kids yet and we have really similar views on marriage. Well, we hit a rough patch due to some stress and just the fact that we were in different places in life when we met. I was going through a rough patch and he is more of a partier than I am. We were on the verge of breaking up, when I took a pregnancy test. I didn’t think I was pregnant, but something was off with my body. It was positive. I told my boyfriend and he told me he’d pay for an abortion. I told him that wasn’t an option and now we’re both terrified and freaking out. We weren’t trying, we were actively preventing and neither of us wanted a baby right now. Any advice y’all have is appreciated! Also prayers for a sticky bean given my history.