Pretty sure I’m out..vent

I’m 12DPO . Every test has been negative. I know the whole “not out until AF comes” , but the depression got me hard today after the stark white negative. Hubby took me out to eat and we had to get some clothes for my Toddler. I had to stop before he opened the doors to Carter’s/Osh Kosh because I saw a baby outfit through the window and got really emotional. I’m feeling PMS moods and crap. I want to know I ovulate but I can’t deal with the DPO stuff. Just venting.