I'm super jealous of my husband and our room mate. We had some situations a little while ago of him cheating on me with her. He swore it would stop and then right as we started to work on us we got those two pink lines. I'm hormonal already hurt by his actions so I have not been the nicest to him and one moment they are in the next room giggling and as soon as he comes into the room I'm in we are arguing because I get jealous. He keeps telling me I'm pushing him away from being so bitchy and I need to stop bringing up the past and get over it but it was only 3 weeks ago.... I feel like he's gaslighting me and making me feel all crazy. But like.... He would rather spend time with her and not me because I'm bitchy but if he wasn't on a war path to ruin our life and break my heart for the last 3 months I wouldn't be so bitchy. Like he said sorry and just expects me to be fine cuz he said sorry but the pattern that caused him to cheat before is starting again. And to anyone saying I need get her out I know... I'm trying. It's not really her she's not the married one I'm mad at him because there's a ring on his finger he shouldn't be giving her a reason to flirt back in the first place. But I do want her out. But I feel crazy and hurt and I just don't know what to do. I'm well aware I'm married to a narcasist and I navigate it well. But right now I'm weak and tiered and nauseous and paranoid and hurt and stressed and he makes me look like the bad guy because I'm not dealing with his fuckery with grace and patiently like normal.