I have an eating disorder that was under control after I met my husband. But when i got pregnant with my son in 2017 and depression set in, that's when it started up again, but eventually i got it under control. I'm pregnant again, but I'm going through depression again because our relationship isn't what it use to be, and i can't make myself eat. I hear all the time to think about the baby. It's not about my weight or self image. It's like i can't stop staving myself because I'm so depressed. My husband and I are separated. I saw him Saturday, and he made me so upset. Every piece of food i tried to eat was so disgusting. I spit it out. I woke up at 4am this morning and tried to drink a Boost. It made me feel so sick, so now there's a fear of trying to eat. I went from 208, pre-pregnancy. Now I'm 185ish... I just came to vent. Not sure if there's any help for me.