I just had my seventh baby, seven months this ago. I’ve been pregnant basically my entire twelve year marriage. I’ve always been small. 5’4” and before pregnancy I was 95-100 pounds. Now I’m about 118-120. I’m by no means overweight but I hate my body changes! I’ve always had a small chest but now my A cup breasts are like deflated skin flaps. No stretch marks on my belly but my skin is loose and wrinkled. I have curvy hips and I’m ok with that but I carry my extra weight around them also, making them giggly, and I’m not ok with that. I have seven kids, I’m active! I eat healthy but don’t regularly exercise. Did I mention I have seven kids? No time for a scheduled exercise routine!

Now, my husband rides his bike to and from work daily, about 14 miles a day. He also takes supplements and weight lifts daily. I eat healthy because of his ‘dietary requirements’ He looks great! I know he loves me but I also know he is attracted to thin. He doesn’t put me down and has never even mentioned me starting to work out, loose the extra baby weight, nothing like that. He is physical with me but doesn’t say ‘you’re beautiful’ Maybe part of my self consciousness comes from that? I dont know. I do know I am not happy with my body though. And no amount of diet or exercise can fix loose, wrinkly skin and flat deflated boobs. Cosmetic surgery is out of the question. I know, I know. I should be proud of what my body has done, and I am! It’s done amazing things growing and birthing my beautiful babies. I just can’t wear this body as a badge of motherhood and do it happily. How do I learn to love the body I have?