I haven’t left the house since Saturday. The thought of leaving the house or going somewhere with my baby is so stressful. It seems like such a simple thing to do right but my anxiety is crippling me. Last time we went out together, a wheel from the stroller fell off in public and I felt like a fool. I use a front carrier most of the time anyway and that causes back pain. I also feel like a pretender when I use my stroller like I’m pretending to be a mum (even though I am).

I see women happily living their lives going about and having fun but I feel like having a baby has crippled me. I thought I was ready for a baby but he reality of having a “special needs” baby is something I wasn’t prepared for. I hope it gets better soon and going out starts to feel good.