So tonight I finally had sex with my crush of about 5 years and TBH it wasn't at all what I expected. I don't regret it or anything but he was so rough with me and he just dived right in and it hurt so bad I was on the verge of tears.

After a while it started getting good and I felt more pleasure than pain but it still hurt and I honestly couldn't enjoy it.

He used the entire pack of condoms (3) and we only did two rounds like what the heck 🙄.

Anyway he was going at it from behind and he was hella holding and squeezing my back into the matress, now my back has an unpleasant feeling in it (almost like I'm on my period) and I honestly don't know what to do plus I'm so sore and my legs still feel like Jell-O even though I don't feel like I actually had an orgasm.

I'm feeling all sorts of feels rn and I don't have anyone to talk to because I'm 17 and he's 22 and he could get in trouble but can someone please tell me what to do about the pain?

Update**

Thanks for all your advice and all that 💓

So I finally got the balls to call him, we met me he apologized for everything. I had told him that I'm a virgin but he didn't believe me because I'm like always BSing him(I wouldn't have believed me either) so he said that he was sorry and asked for my forgiveness. 😭💓💓Then ofc he said that he couldn't exactly control himself because I felf/ good and was so tight blah blah blah... Iofc forgave him and we ended up having sex over and over and over again I honestly lost count but it was soooooo good I had multiple orgasms and he treated me so gently like I was some fragile priceless piece of china😭💓💓 I love him sooooo much.

So I kinda take some responsibility for him hurting me because I didn't exactly tell him that it was hurting and I guess he must have thought I was enjoying it because I was like sinking my nails into his back and he must have thought my sounds were of pleasure. Anyway thanks again

Can you tell I didn't really know how to write this?