frustrated and sad

After reading a lot of your posts, I realize I am not alone in this...but I cant help to feel depressed about dealing with GD. I just want my baby to be safe and I feel like I worry about every single thing I put in my mouth.

I was diagnosed at 12 weeks with GD - diabetes runs in the family....my numbers had been great until last week I noticed they started to climb...now Im not sure if its because I was extremely sick with a cold or bc baby is growing...I’m trying to calm down and think of the many ways I can make this better...but I end up back where I am at: sad and depressed

Also, Indo not trust the glucometer my dr gave me. I have tested my sugar with three others and they are always lower than the one she gave me (same blood, diff strips). when I mention this to my dr, she disregards it and says to stick with one glucometer, but when readings are over 20 points apart, I cant help but worry...

Im 21 weeks now and still have a long eays to go...I had an appt this week and even though my average for all numbers did not go above 115, dr wanted to put me on meds already...after I told her how sick Ive been she changed her mind but now Im on a two-week trial to see if numbers improve

I hate having GD and cant help but feel like a failure at protecting my baby